Wednesday, June 30, 2010


There are people who want to be your friend. They want to be around you. They take the time to make sure your included when something is going on. These are the people you should surround yourself with. People who will enrich your life, make you a stronger-better person.
Why do we always try to be around those who make us feel unimportant or like we don't matter? Isn't the whole point of friend: having someone whom enriches your life as much as you want to enrich theirs.

I have come to realize over the last month or so, that it is time to grow up and face reality that is life. Friends are great to have. I tell my daughter, you can never have too many friend. They enrich you, make you a better person. But are all "friends" REAL friends. This is the question I have been asking myself. I have started finding that, the people I want to be with, are not always the ones I have the most fun with. But rather that I enjoy being with them, even when all we do is sit and just be there. YES, fun can and will still be had. But, honestly, I want to know your my friend because you like me. NOT because, I am a hoot sometimes. Because, honeys- there be times, when this hoot is not fun and I need someone to be my person. That if I want to talk, they will listen. If I want to cry, they will wait and if I just need to be around someone... there is no need to do anything.

So many books about self-help out there. But really, when you really need to fix something, it is not the words on a page of a book that will always be a fix. It is the words your writing within yourself that matter. Needing to look in the mirror and like what you see. This will reflect onto the people your put around yourself. And further will reflect onto them and maybe, make them feel better about themselves too.

Do you want to just be the person people want to hang out with when the going is fun? Or do you want to be the person they just like to be around period!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

She is dying...

My beautiful dog is probably going to be gone by tomorrow night. She is on her last bit of energy. Tired. Barely holding it together. It is almost midnight and I am sitting in the backyard just holding her and loving her to try to keep her calm. I know she is just exhausted. She has fought the last 2 or 3 months to stay around.

(Con't) 6-18 @ 4:07 pm- My darling Dakata crossed the Rainbow Bridge today at 3:02 pm. She was brave to the end and hopefully knew she was loved.

She was met by our other dear ones gone before: Treat, Dallas, Baby the cat and her littermate sister Callie.


Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Great day with kids!

Today was one of those, hmm, what can we do to keep the kids from getting "bored"! The Answer?? Explorit Museum in Davis. It is a lot like the one in San Jose, but not as big and not so crowded. The kids had a serious blast. We went with Claire and her kids (Ashlynn and Alex). Also had plans to go with another friend, but her smaller one was feeling ill. So, we bopped on over and picked up Gabriel's friend Corinna.

Small drive to Davis (25 min), not a lot of traffic.

I think the biggest success was parachutes. They had this huge wind tunnel that you could put different things into, to see if the wind effected them different ways. Foam square, parachutes, etc. Next to the wind tunnel was a craft table. All of the kids made their OWN parachutes and got to test them out. Would a paper clip in the basket make it fly faster than a metal ring?? Add a paper clip.. hmmm. Was FABULOUS science experiments and the kids had so much fun!

Then onto water play, static electricity, perhaps testing how acidic certain items can be?? There was something for all ages. Gabriel got into the higher tech things. Rebecca: the microscope was soo cool. Saw a feather up close, starfish, hair, coconut fibers. NEAT!! Zachary: was all about the water table, and testing how to make a dam and flow tubes. (shhhh don't tell his dad. The Civil Engineer in him would giggle)

All in all, a great day. Finished off with a trip to McDonalds and playground.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Another Crossroad:

I have found this last month or so, my personal life is at another crossroad. With the end of school this year, we have faced the end of constant friendships, that is possible to not withstand the seperation. People that I enjoyed company and time with, are moving into a new phase of their life, and I am not sure where this leaves "us" I have started to re-group and create new relationships that hoping with remain more constant.

Things have been so chaotic in so many aspects of my life, that the need for friends who remain constant, will be there whether my days are pinks and sparkling.. or doom and gloomy grey.

But, it begs the question: When do you let go? When do you move on? Are the moments of yesterday worth the effort for the tomorrows? At what point in my life, does the need for frivolous friends become a non-need, and the need for people who I can trust when the chips are up or down... is more important? And who are the people to trust with your whole being?

I feel as if, there are so many changes lately, I don't know where to begin and where to let the constant remain. I do not want to make decisions based on feelings I am dealing with right now.

I am so tired. Tired of feeling lost. Tired of the chaos... just tired.