Friday, November 26, 2010

Never enough time

This morning, I got out of bed and faced the hustle and chaos of being a mother. "He is touching me" "She took my toy" "Moooooom!" At times, I am at the end of my rope and just want to escape. I run the constant marathon of being a mother, a wife.. a friend. Sometimes, in the middle of all the chaos, I stop and look in the mirror and wonder: Who is this person? When did she get so tired?  Why is she looking so frazzled?

The main question is Why? Why do I do all this? I wake up and take care of everyone else, and forget to do anything for me. There is NEVER ENOUGH TIME!

Never enough time to breathe. Never enough time to be me. Never enough time to STOP. Stop? Perhaps we need to stop and remember what is important. To me, what is important IS my Family, my friends. My Husband.  Because, how would I feel if one day, I woke up and it was all gone. I am grateful EVERYDAY for the fights, the constant chaos and fatigue that comes with being a mom, a wife and a friend. 
A little over a year ago, my amazing Sister in Law Kristin lost her 2 year
battle to leukemia. She was a fighter. A mother. A wife and a wonderful friend.
Up until 3 weeks before her passing we were celebrating her remission. Then,
about 2 weeks after a family reunion/camping trip, she was gone. It was very
sudden and took us all by suprise.

About a month ago, I felt a huge nudge to do something beyond myself. I am not
the most physically active person. I have done enough to keep in shape and keep
up with my kids. I resisted for a while, but finally after several small
indications that it was the right thing to do, I signed up a few weeks ago to
run a Half marathon in Support of the Leukemia/ Lymphoma Society. Money raised
though this society goes to pay for research, learning materials for new
patients and their family. God inspired me to reach beyond myself and do
something I never thought I could do, to help others like my sister in law and
her family through their time of trials.

Please, look into your heart and if you can:

Even if you can’t give a large amount, no amount is too small I have heard people say- We would love to give, but we just can’t afford it, then head to Starbucks. Is a couple days coffee worth another lost life?

To be honest, I am scared. I spend so much time taking care of others: my kids, my husband, my family and seem to never do anything for myself.  Beyond this marathon being ran to help others like my Sister in Law, I am doing this as something for me. I believe that as mothers, we do for others and forget ourselves. I am finding since I started training, I am doing things for me. Taking care of me.. What a better calling to make time for myself as a mother while doing something amazing for others.

If you have read this far.. Thank you and God Bless